Comfort food is something that is pretty close to my heart. Whenever things get bad, when I feel lost, whenever there is a gap to fill, I fill it with food. It’s always been my way of coping. It’s really not good for me, it’s never fixed anything, but I don’t know what I’d do without it.
I’ve suffered from depression since my teens and although after years of therapy I’ve reached an understanding of it, when it hits me hard there’s nothing I can do. I’ve just got to sit and ride it out, hoping that I come out of it okay. I’ve felt myself sinking over the last few months and I’m well and truly stuck in a sad, hopeless little bubble. I feel like my brain is covered in a fuzzy grey fog with no desire to do anything about it. Anything that could goes wrong, does go wrong and my emotions are constantly on edge, a nudge in the wrong direction and it feels like the end of the world. I hate my job, I hate the time I have to spend alone with my sad, irritating thoughts (yet spending time with anyone else feels like an effort) I hate most things really, there’s very little that gives me any joy at the moment.
However, I did experience a brief evening of happiness on Sunday, which led me to the recipe I’m about to post here. My OH put on a gig featuring one of my all time favourite bands. They’re called Ghost Mice and they’re amazing. If you haven’t heard them, check them out. Anyway, they came all the way over from the US for their tour, and we were putting them up for the night. After two days of sheer stress and panic (a complete overreaction on my part), food had been cooked, the spare bed was made and the house was reasonably tidy.
We got back in from the gig, ate some food and got chatting. Somehow, through the topic of Irn Bru and the rumour that one of the flavours in Dr Pepper is prunes (totally not true by the way) I got around to asking what the hell is this biscuits and gravy meal that seems to be so loved and popular in the US. Honestly, I just never got it. It’s never even appealed to me. They described the biscuits, the process of making the veggie sausage gravy. They explained that it was the ultimate dish to cook when you’re poor, when it’s morning and the weather is cold and shitty, it’s just pure comfort food. It’s funny, it still seemed weird to me but their love of the dish, the enthusiasm they had for it inspired me to give it a go.
Today, two days later I’ve been in need of some serious comfort food. I’m paying for the happiness I had on Sunday, it’s all been taken away and I’m back in the fog. Food ain’t gonna bring it back, but I crave that warm, stodgy food and the brief buzz and distraction it gives me.
And I’ve gotta say. Ghost Mice were right. Biscuits and Gravy is the ultimate comfort food…simple, warm, creamy and flavoursome. Just what you need to beat away the blues.
Biscuits and “Sausage” Gravy
For the Biscuits
- 2 cups spelt flour (or use white, I was trying to be good)
- 3 tsp baking powder
- 1 tsp salt
- 1/4 cup marg or vegetable fat
- 1 cup soya milk with 1 tsp cider vinegar mixed in, so that it curdles.
- Preheat the oven to 190C
- Mix together the flour, baking powder and salt
- Add the marg/vegetable fat and soya milk, stir until just mixed (add more flour if it seems too sticky)
- When it’s mixed, flour the work surface and knead the dough a bit. Then use a cookie cutter, or if you’re sophisticated like me a glass, to cut out biscuit shapes.
- Pop them onto a greased cookie sheet and bake for 15 minutes or so.
For the Gravy
- 4-6 veggie sausages, chopped I used Fry’s
- 1 onion, chopped
- 1 tsp garlic powder or a few cloves of garlic, minced
- 6 tbsp olive oil
- 1/2 cup spelt flour
- lots of soya milk
- dried herbs
- salt and pepper
- First off you wanna get a little oil and fry up the the sausages with the onion and garlic. When these are nicely browned put them into a bowl and leave to one side.
- Put the 6 tbsp of oil into the pan and whisk in the flour to make a roux.
- Put the heat onto low and cook for a few minutes before slowly adding the soy milk. Keep whisking!
- Use as much soy milk as you want for the consistency you want and simmer.
- Add dried herbs and lots of salt and pepper.
To Assemble This Deliciousness…
- Put the warm biscuits onto a plate.
- Slather in the sausage gravy.
- Stuff it in your face and enjoy the temporary bliss
There is a reason why this blog post is a Part 1. Although the biscuits and gravy were amazing, it wasn’t enough. There was a big gap to fill.
I made something else but you’ll have to wait until next time. For now. Make these. K? And listen to this while you’re at it.