Vegan Mofo 2017 #17: Keeping Busy Post Surgery

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A Vegan Experience of Surgery & Recovery: I had chest reconstruction surgery on August 22nd 2017. For Vegan Mofo 2017, I will be writing about my experience preparing for surgery and my ongoing recovery.

After the first 3 weeks of recovery, I was mostly off painkillers and feeling a lot more ‘with it’. No longer in a drug haze, I found myself needing things to do to occupy my time. I still didn’t have much focus at all, so the usual time killers of complex TV shows, films, books and podcasts weren’t going to be much use here. I also had to plan frequent naps and rests into my day as anything more than a few hours and I was exhausted.

It was actually pretty hard to find low energy stuff to do and I found myself getting frustrated and a bit restless, I wasn’t able to make use of any of the entertainment I had lined up in preparation! I thought I’d share a few things I did to keep myself busy post surgery.

Colouring In

This was a really nice simple thing to do that could keep me busy for hours, also it was super satisfying every time I finished a piece. I don’t think I’ve been able to colour for such large amounts of time since I was a child…which probably explains a bit of what my state of mind has been like!

I’ve had a great time colouring swearing cats

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And also I really enjoyed the Querkles series, especially the animal and cat editions.  It’s essentially colour by numbers but a bit more interesting and you get to pick which colours you want to use.

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Low Energy TV Series 

My plans to rewatch Buffy & Angel and binge on the latest series of Orange is the New Black were ruined by the state of my brain. I couldn’t concentrate for that long and I didn’t want to watch if I wouldn’t enjoy it.

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Steven Universe has been an absolute lifesaver, you’ve probably noticed from the amount of screenshots I’ve been using to illustrate posts just how much I love it! It’s not completely mindless, a lot goes on within the series but episodes are only 11 minutes long so I could watch a few here and there without losing all my brain power. Also, what’s not to love? It’s super queer and hilarious. I’m so in love with this show, it really is perfect.

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Sabrina The Teenage Witch. Now this is MINDLESS! Me and Logan managed to get through all 7 seasons of this during recovery. The last 3 seasons were pretty damn awful but still watchable, even if the credits and theme tunes became unbearable. Salem remains pretty hilarious throughout which was probably the only reason we managed to finish it off.

Cake Boss. Yes we watched some really shitty reality TV. But it has cake in it and Italian American families shouting at each other for 40 minutes can be more entertaining than you’d think.

Gaming

Now I had hopes to crack on with some Final Fantasy 7 during recovery but these aren’t the kind of games I could play. I mostly ended up filling hours of my time with Facebook and Android app games.

Here’s what kept me going

Amateur Surgeon, Burrito Bison, Cooking Dash, Everwing & Simon’s Cat

Logan also got me a Land Before Time game for the PS1. This was so terrible and so blocky that it was actually quite hard to play. But we had a good laugh at things like this

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Short Walks

It was really important for me to get up and about as much as I could. My energy levels were low for a really long time (in fact they’re still not up to speed even now) so I couldn’t do much. I took lots of short walks, mostly popping out to the shops 15 minutes away to get some fresh rolls for lunch, or pottering around the park.

When I had a little more energy, I would walk down to the bargain and pound shops nearby and just look out for accidentally vegan biscuits and treats to eat to keep myself entertained. Not exactly thrilling but it got me out, kept me staying out for a while and then when I got home I had something nice to eat before my nap.

Also we occasionally took trips into town to get some lunch. Because we were quite slow on our feet this would be quite draining as we’d be out for 3 hours or so, but it kept us busy and made us feel like we had done something during the day. I’ll be reviewing all the places we ate out at, but here’s a Haggis Pakora Wrap I had at Pakora Bar in Edinburgh. It was so good and worth the trip into town.

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Spending Time With Friends

We couldn’t do this often because conversation is HARD when you’re tired all the time, but it was really nice to chill out with some of our friends. They’re very understanding so we didn’t do anything too taxing, just hanging around chatting, having a drink at a bar and one night we managed a games night with this amazing game I got hold of

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It was really great to have company as spending a lot of time inside and napping can be quite isolating. I felt lucky that Logan was around for much of my recovery as I think I would have got very lonely without him.

And that’s pretty much what I’ve been up to on my low energy recovery days! I’ll be back tomorrow with a more food related post

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Vegan Mofo 2017 #16: The Hip Hop Chip Shop

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A Vegan Experience of Surgery & Recovery: I had chest reconstruction surgery on August 22nd 2017. For Vegan Mofo 2017, I will be writing about my experience preparing for surgery and my ongoing recovery.

I found myself in Manchester just over a week post op for a few days before I came up here to Edinburgh to see out the rest of my recovery. Being so far away from home for so long, I had a few friends who were keen to see me before I left for Scotland. Of course I suggested a meal out and I had just the place in mind.

For a short while The Hip Hop Chip Shop set up at Kosmonaut Bar in Manchester’s Northern Quarter. Unfortunately their run at Kosmonaut ended at the beginning of this month but there are plans for them to open their own place in Ancoats next year and they can also be found at Media City most weekdays, so check out their Facebook Page to see where they’re at!

This was the perfect place for us all to meet. What better way to celebrate my top surgery than to eat everything covered in batter?!

I was really impressed with all the vegan options on their menu. They have a Veganstarr Meal of Battered Sausage, Chips & Mushy Peas. At around £7 it’s not the cheapest chippy but the portions are HUGE and you get a vegan chippy meal that is very hard to find in the UK.

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Also, the sides are so where it’s at. Chilli Batter Onion Rings, Chilli Batter Plantain and Battered Gherkins? Oh God get in my mouth.

The best part? If you bring your own chocolate bar they’ll batter and fry it for 50p. So OF COURSE I brought a few things to try out.

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Verdict: 9/10

This was a winner, I think the bulkiness made it a really good option for deep frying, it wasn’t too greasy and you got a good bite. It was soft, warm, sugary and delicious. The only thing stopping it getting 10/10 is that the marshmallow didn’t really melt, it just went softer. Damn you vegan mallow!

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Verdict 6/10

I expected amazing things from this chocolate bar but the result was (don’t hate me) a bit too much. It was SO sweet and sickly. Perhaps if I hadn’t eaten if after a HUGE battered meal I would have enjoyed it more. But it was also quite greasy because it was quite flat. Of course I would eat it all over again.

I really loved The Hip Hop Chip shop and I’m so excited for them to be opening their own place next year. It would be great if they had some more vegan main options. A battered vegan chicken burger and definitely some battered vegan fish. These fake meats are all relatively easy to come by and would keep us vegans going back time and time again!

 

Vegan Mofo 2017 #15: What I Ate 1 Week Post Op

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A Vegan Experience of Surgery & Recovery: I had chest reconstruction surgery on August 22nd 2017. For Vegan Mofo 2017, I will be writing about my experience preparing for surgery and my ongoing recovery.

I thought I would do a quick photo share of some of the meals I ate during my first week of recovery. It was a bit of a strange week as I was napping most of the time, on strong painkillers and my appetite wasn’t what it usually is. It was all a bit of a blur, it’s actually been handy to look back at food photos to remember what I got up to.

Bread featured pretty heavily. Quick and simple, I had a lot of nice crusty bread topped with cream cheese, sliced tomato & pepper, Fry’s Slicing sausage, hummus, chocolate spread and biscoff spread.

Breakfasts were easy as I relied on cereal bars, yogurt and fruit to keep me going until lunch time

Amy’s Mac n Cheese and Taifun Tofu Fillets were an easy meal I managed to get together while home alone. Both of these went into the oven for about 25 minutes and were ready to eat.

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Also Pie served with Pie was a winning combination.

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Bryn made me some wonderful meals with help from Simply Cook. These monthly subscription boxes are really great and work as detailed below

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Bryn had a few of these boxes ready (they were all veggie recipes too!), so it was really great that we could look through the recipe cards and pick whatever we fancied that night, getting the fresh bits we needed from the local corner shop. Bryn told me he wasn’t a great cook, but the food he prepared me was super delicious. We had a nice curry and a jambalaya which we added Tofurkey Sausages too.

So good!  All the recipes made plenty of food too, I was very impressed. If you have someone looking after you who isn’t a confident cook, I recommend looking into getting a trial box for this first week of recovery.

And of course, there were takeaways. I had this gigantic vegan Pad Thai with massive Satay Tofu Skewers and also great Sushi.

My first week post op had some pretty good eats! Not bad for someone who was asleep for most of the day!

 

Vegan Mofo 2017 #14: Gelato & The Beach

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A Vegan Experience of Surgery & Recovery: I had chest reconstruction surgery on August 22nd 2017. For Vegan Mofo 2017, I will be writing about my experience preparing for surgery and my ongoing recovery.

7 days post op was a lovely sunny Bank Holiday Monday in Brighton. Two of my favourite people came to visit me from London that day and I was keen to get out in the sun and eat some good food.

Sadly it was quite a short visit, as two of us weren’t in the best of shape, but we definitely made the most of the few hours we had together.

We started off by heading down to the Laines in search of Gelato while we had a catch up. A few years ago, I would have been insisting we go to Boho Gelato and nowhere else, but honestly, the few times I popped in during the run up to surgery, the flavours were too fruity and boring for me. I decided to get down to Gelato Gusto, who have a wide range of vegan options and queues going right down the street.

I was not disappointed in the offer there that day. I had an amazing selection of Salted Caramel, Pistachio and Mango Raspberry (I’m sure this was the third flavour, though I was high on drugs so who knows?!) There were quite a few other flavours available, all clearly labelled but the staff are super friendly if you want to double check what is and isn’t vegan.

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I love love loved the Pistachio. It was so creamy and full of flavour. Salted Caramel was amazing as it always is, it’s sweet…what’s not to love? I did enjoy the fruity flavour, it was rich and creamy and a nice addition to the other two scoops that were there.

After Gelato we had a quick stroll by some of the shops and I went via Loving Hut to pick up my favourite of an Ocean Burger and Sweet n Sour Chicken Balls to take down to the beach. I wanted to eat a fishy burger and chips by the sea!

I love Brighton Beach because it’s not a sandy beach, it’s stones! Yay! No shitty annoying sand in my shoes and between my toes. It’s heaven for me! We found a nice patch and settled down for a wee lie down. The sun was beaming down and it was HOT, so I decided to roll my trousers up, whip my shirt off and chill out in my post op binder.

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I was so happy here, I’ve never felt that comfortable on beaches before but it was pretty liberating to get my top off at the beach. Dream come true! I only managed around 15-20 minutes in the sun before I started to worry that I’d burn before my post op appointment the next day, and retreated back to the shade.

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Me and my amazing friend Joanna ❤

It was such a beautiful fun day out with friends and reminded me how much I love Brighton when the weather is so good. It was nice to finally be up for getting out and about to enjoy the place. I definitely recommend checking out Gusto Gelato and despite being a bit mean about the vegan options at Boho Gelato, they’re also pretty great and worth checking out too. Who says you can’t have Gelato twice in one day?

That’s all for today, hope you all have a wonderful Saturday!

Vegan Mofo 2017 #13: The Unveiling

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A Vegan Experience of Surgery & Recovery: I had chest reconstruction surgery on August 22nd 2017. For Vegan Mofo 2017, I will be writing about my experience preparing for surgery and my ongoing recovery.

I thought I’d talk a little bit about my post op appointment on here, as it was definitely a traumatic memorable experience.

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Just a warning that this post goes into detail of having my bandages and tape removed, mentions of blood and incisions. If you’re really not comfortable with this stuff, maybe don’t read…or read and be thankful it wasn’t you!

Now this will be different for most people because every surgery is different and even if you’re having the same procedure, every surgeon is different too. They all have different ways of doing things. For example, my partner waited 4 weeks before his post op appointment. Yes. He had to keep the same bandages on (and not get them wet in the shower) for a month. It wasn’t as smelly as we predicted. I guess what I’m saying is that my experience wasn’t great BUT yours will probably be very different. Don’t let my experience scare you, just put some things in place to be a little more prepared, because I wasn’t and I think that’s what made it so bad.

So my post op was exactly 1 week after surgery. I had a few concerns about having my chest revealed to me so early on but generally I was excited to see it and because the surgery wasn’t too bad, I didn’t think I would need support. I went by myself. I think this is the mistake I made, I think I should have had someone there with me.

I was in good spirits when I got called in to see my surgeon. He very quickly got me sat down ready to take the bandages off with a nurse to help. They stood on either side of me and told me that this would hurt a little as the tape would be attached to hair. I cheerfully replied ‘I shaved my armpits though!’ thinking it would be fine. It wasn’t. It really really wasn’t.

I got cut quite far round towards my back due to the size of my chest, so when they both started frantically tearing off the bandages that weren’t covering incisions but were causing severe pain, I knew pretty quickly that this was going to be bad. It really fucking hurt. Not only that but they were ripping the bandages away too quickly. I’m an anxious person and I understand why they wanted to get them off as fast as they could, but the pace in which they did it made me feel completely out of control of the situation…and that is what I struggled most with.

My body went into shock. I was shaking, my palms were sweaty, I was lightheaded and I had no control of my arms moving down to try and protect myself. Once the main big bandages were off, they had to get the steri strips off my incisions. Now, whoever had put them on had cut them into tiny little bits, so they were having to get their nails under these short bits of strip and quickly rip them off. Whoever put those strips on…fuck you. They definitely weren’t supposed to be done that way because my surgeon mentioned finding out who did it and telling them off. As they were ripping them off, my incisions were bleeding. I couldn’t see it but my surgeon had to keep asking the nurse for gauze. I daren’t look down.

After what felt like ages and a LOT of swearing later, all the bandages and tape were off. I was shakey but relieved…it was over!

Or so I thought

‘Right’ my surgeon said ‘That’s the worst bit over. Lie back and I’ll take your staples out’

You what? You fucking what? STAPLES?

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This guy did NOT mention that he would be stapling me. I looked down. I had staples all along my incisions and in my nipple grafts. This isn’t what I was prepared for, none of the people I know who have had this exact surgery have had staples. I couldn’t believe there was more to come. I think he saw the look on my face because he reassured me the worst bit was over.

Ha.

Well, how do you define worst? Because, yes, he had stopped ripping tape off my incisions at high speed but lying back, shaking uncontrollably and having someone snip and twist out staples didn’t feel much better.

‘You won’t feel this’ he said.

‘I can feel you wiggling inside me’ I said.

It was sore and not pleasant. Staples shouldn’t go in the body. Especially in nipples. Just. No.

After that, it was over. For real. They mopped up some of the blood and asked me if I wanted to see my chest before they put tape back on my incisions. After what had just happened, I was a bit scared to see it. I stood up and had a look at my chest in the full length mirror. At this point I was so shakey and overwhelmed, I shed a few tears when I saw it for the first time. I couldn’t believe how flat it was.

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After a quick look, they put some micropore tape over my incisions and went through all of the instructions for how to look after my chest over the next few months as this would be the last time I see my surgeon. He discussed things like when my incisions would be waterproof, what to expect with healing, how often to change my tape, what complications to look out for etc etc. I retained barely any of this because I was in shock.

I was then shuffled out of the room and that was that.

I walked very carefully back outside to the bus stop. I felt a LOT more fragile than when I turned up for my appointment. I guess the staples made my incisions feel a lot more secure. I was in a lot of pain at this point and felt like everything was going to rip open. When I got to the bus stop I burst into tears. My boyfriend called me and could tell that I was in shock. I also started to feel really nauseous too. I took 10 minutes or so to get myself together as much as possible before heading into town to get a nice big sugary drink.

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Sad and Anxious Eduardo from Foster’s Home For Imaginary Friends

It probably took me around 45 minutes to recover from the shock of it all and I really regret not having someone there with me. That would be my biggest piece of advice, especially if your post op is just 1 week after surgery. Also bring something sugary for if you get the shakes.

I felt like a bit of a wuss for reacting this way to the appointment but later spoke to someone else who had their unveiling on the same day, who went back to the car and cried! So I felt pretty relieved that it wasn’t just me who felt this way about it. Looking back it was pretty traumatic and I got a bit teary when I spoke to people about it for the next few days. It was definitely the worst part of the whole process. Also, there’s nothing to really prepare you for seeing your chest at that stage. Of course I was thrilled it was flat, but it was also difficult to see my nipples and incisions out in the open, so early into healing.

So that was my post op experience! For anyone I may have terrified by sharing this, please remember that everyone’s experience is different. My boyfriend had zero problems at his post op, it didn’t hurt him like mine did. So that sort of balances it out a bit, I guess. I just know that I wish I had had a little bit more of a warning about what to expect, I would have approached the whole thing very differently and wouldn’t have had such a shock!

That’s all for today, I’ll be back tomorrow with something much less nauseating.

Vegan Mofo 2017 #12: Tasty Foods at Purezza Pizza in Brighton

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A Vegan Experience of Surgery & Recovery: I had chest reconstruction surgery on August 22nd 2017. For Vegan Mofo 2017, I will be writing about my experience preparing for surgery and my ongoing recovery.

Despite not having much energy and my lack of mobility, I was determined to eat out at a restaurant during my stay in Brighton. My lovely friend Bryn suggested heading down to Purezza, a new (for me at least) Vegan Italian place in town.

We had a gentle stroll down and got there for around 7pm. There were no free tables as the place was absolutely packed, but we were told the wait wouldn’t be too long and given menu’s to check out.

Oh my gosh, there was so much to choose from here. I got really excited about the various pizza’s on offer and then spotted Mac n Cheese. Goddammit, it’s not fair to have both pizza and mac on the menu! Luckily for me, Bryn is an absolute babe and offered to share a main course of Mac as a side dish. A genius idea that I was incredibly grateful for, this man understands me <3, he is a good human.

I was still umming and ahhing over what pizza I fancied by the time we were given a table. It took me a while to choose between the Parmiagana Party (Smoked Mozzarella, fried sausage, fried aubergine, nooch and basil) and the One Night in Bangkok (white base, stir fried veg, sprouted beans, peanut sauce and siracha). I decided to go for the Parmiagana because I frigging love sausage.

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Look at that pizza. So beautiful. I have to say, this was really really good. I love sourdough pizza bases and the toppings worked really well together. I devoured this.

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I also got to try some of Bryn’s Couch Potato (white base, smoked mozzarella, sliced roast potatoes, fried aubergine and pea pancetta). THIS WAS A GOOD CHOICE. A GOOD CHOICE INDEED! Roast potatoes on pizza is a genius idea. I love carbs and loved my slice of heaven.

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I also really liked the Mac n Cheese. It had the delicious pea pancetta on top, but I’m also sure that there was pea in the cheese sauce, it had a really unusual sweetness to it. It wasn’t the cheesiest mac I’ve had, but it was super tasty, different from anything I’ve had and had a beautiful savoury taste to it. It was a bit weird, but in a good way for me, I loved it.

After eating all this, I was absolutely stuffed. Which was a real shame because there were some amazing sounding desserts that I wanted to try…Oreo Pizza anyone?

Overall, I was super impressed with my visit to Purezza. Service was great, the food came out quickly and it all tasted amazing. It is quite pricey, but then it’s not your typical fast food pizza and I thought the quality of the food was definitely worth the price. The menu has some really interesting combinations on it, I’m definitely going to have to return and try out some more dishes…the Lasagne, Raw Smoked Salmon and Cheesy Bites are calling my name!

 

Vegan Mofo 2017 #11: Leaving Hospital

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A Vegan Experience of Surgery & Recovery: I had chest reconstruction surgery on August 22nd 2017. For Vegan Mofo 2017, I will be writing about my experience preparing for surgery and my ongoing recovery.

I thought I’d do a post all about what to expect for the first week or so post surgery. Of course every surgery is different, everyone’s experience is different but the first week is a bit of a strange beast. I had no idea what to expect so I thought it might be helpful to some to share my experience.

Rest Up

The first 2-3 days post op I felt unstoppable. I expected to be restricted to my bed, but I was surprisingly mobile. I think a lot of this came down to the painkillers I was on and I think that this is something to be cautious of. I could have overdone it a fair few times if I hadn’t had my friend suggesting I take it easy and reminding me to nap.

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Me after walking too far

My advice, take it easy, rest up and don’t push yourself….even if you feel like you can. I made a mistake a few days post surgery walking to The Real Patisserie in Kemp Town and back, stopping off along the marina for a short stroll. It was too much, I knew it when I had to head back and I was exhausted for the rest of the day.

 

Pain Management

Honestly, the pain and discomfort I had was nothing compared to what I predicted. Being an anxious soul, I was expecting a lot of pain. Generally it was pretty easy to deal with as long as I kept on top of my painkillers. The first 3 days I could definitely feel it when I was due my next dose of codeine. Around 60-45 minutes beforehand I would start clock watching. It doesn’t sound too long to wait it out, but when you’re uncomfortable it feels a lot longer and I required a bit of distraction. Mindless games on my tablet, treating myself to chocolate or chatting with friends really helped. I tried to time naps around my medication too, but be careful not to sleep too long and miss a dose, as it’ll take a while for it to get into your system.

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I also found making sure I took my last dose of codeine late in the evening before bed really helped me. It helped me get off to sleep which was useful as I was having to sleep on my back, which is not natural to me at all.

After the first few days I didn’t have much pain around my incisions unless I overstretched or rolled over sleeping, most of the pain was back pain. I think this is more of an issue with me as I broke my ribs a few years ago and they took 5kg off my chest, so my back was having to re-adjust a bit. It was actually the side of my back that wasn’t injured that hurt the most and I think that was due to the fact it had been compensating for the break all these years. All I could do to help this was rest up, take short walks and take my V Pillow with me where I could. This really helped with back support. I found it very painful sitting on dining room chairs, or out in cafes and restaurants for extended periods of time.

I had to wear a binder for 1 week post op which didn’t help with back pain and was also very uncomfortable. I wasn’t able to bind before surgery so this was a new experience for me. It would get itchy, hot, sweaty, smelly and I wasn’t really supposed to take it off. After the first 3 days I was really struggling and would allow myself 1 binder break each day of between 1-2 hours. I would lie still with an ice pack on my back. It was best to do this at night as I would get some pain relief before bed.

Mobility

Surgery left me T Rexed, I couldn’t really move my arms around very much. This made things like preparing meals, picking stuff up off the floor, putting t shirts on, reaching for anything above waist level difficult or impossible.

I definitely couldn’t cook for the first 2 days, I think I made my own sandwich on day 3 and could prepare simple lunches from then. My friend was an absolute babe and cooked me meals each day, which was really helpful. I’d recommend trying to have someone around to help get you food for the first 2 days at least or stick to ready made stuff that can be eaten cold, put in the microwave etc.

I also walked very slowly for the first week, so if you plan to go for a stroll remember that it won’t be at your usual speed. Having two huge incisions on my chest, I felt very fragile when I was out and about. I stuck to walking around quiet streets so I wouldn’t get bumped and walking gently as my incisions didn’t feel completely supported yet.

I started off just walking up and down the road I was staying on, extending my walks a little bit more each day. Try this and don’t try to do too much too soon. Lots of short walks are better than one that is too long.

Keeping Busy

I can’t believe I was concerned about keeping entertained the first week post op. I had zero focus for a few weeks post op. A lot of my time was spent quietly glazed over, staring into space. I could manage some mindless game apps and some chat.

I wasn’t able to really engage with films or tv until around day 5 and even then it had to be gentle viewing as I had limited brain power. I struggled with podcasts and reading books was out of the question for me, unless it was something cute and beautiful like this. I loved this.

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Nightlights by Lorena Alvarez

My friend has an epic board game collection, I managed a few simple card games and such, but wasn’t able to do anything complicated until the end of the week.

It sounds like I would have been bored out of my mind but honestly I didn’t have the brain power to be bored. It all went very quickly and I was pretty satisfied in my drugged up, peaceful bubble.

Post Surgery Poop

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It was as shocked as I am

TMI.

TMI.

I hear ya, this is gross talk but I feel like I need to warn people about this because I think my post surgery shit was actually one of the most uncomfortable and painful experiences of this entire surgery business. Seriously.

Do everything you can to get yourself to poop asap. I thought I’d be safe because I’m vegan. I wasn’t. Anaesthetic, morphine and codeine block you up. It’s awful. Take the laxatives they give you and get that fibre in. Eat yer prunes, knock back some mushy peas, get some high fibre cereal bars. In fact, I would say double the laxatives, it won’t hurt to do so and you might get a nice soft stool.

I had a small poop maybe 3 days post op that wasn’t pleasant but wasn’t awful. THIS LULLED ME INTO A FALSE SENSE OF SECURITY. The next day I had THE WORST toilet experience of MY LIFE.

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The saddest experience ever

Oh my God. It haunts my dreams.

I was literally sat on the toilet with tears rolling down my face. I got to the point where it was a 1/3 of the way out and I wanted to retreat but couldn’t, I could only go forward. I didn’t want to push because I didn’t want to tear my arsehole in half. So I just had to sit out the painful, uncomfortable, stabbing gentle arse contractions until it was over.

I cursed. I sobbed. I gave my boyfriend all of the gory details on Facebook messenger as they were happening. There was a point I thought I might die. I’m not even kidding. I’ve never had constipation before. This was awful.

This was the worst pain I felt all week, which is why I feel I have to give you this disgusting warning. Don’t take this warning lightly and end up in the situation I did.

I don’t know how to end this post now, so let’s just wrap this up and move on. TAKE THE LAXATIVES K?

See you tomorrow!