Coping With Life…and Waffles!

I can’t believe that I’ve not posted since February, the last 5 months have gone by super fast and the only excuse I have is that I’ve been busy and overwhelmed with life stuff.

Since my last post I’ve had so many things going on. Transition wise I’ve had a lot of appointments with my NHS Gender Clinic and a private appointment with GenderCare to get a referral for top surgery. This led to a consultation with my surgeon of choice, an amazing response to my GoFundMe page that helped me get enough money together to pay for my surgery and now I’m only 23 days away from having the first operation of my life and officially starting to freak out that it’s actually frigging happening.

I ended a 5 year relationship in January, which I never told you all about at the time because it was too soon and too hard to open up about but things are looking up. I’m still living with my ex but it’s going a lot smoother now and I’m in a new relationship that is the best ever and making me feel all kinds of love and happy.

On top of that I’ve been going to therapy to work through various things. It’s been helpful but also difficult, so a lot of time has been spent under my duvet to process it all. Overall I’m in a better place but I’m still cautious of slipping back to where I was before Christmas. I’m trying to practice this self care stuff, which definitely doesn’t involve yoga, exercise, ‘clean eating’ or just smiling more, but lots of sleep, cuddles and a hell of a lot of mac n cheese.

I’ve been wanting to post an update over the last month or so but I always feel I have to accompany these sorts of posts with a recipe and whilst I’ve been eating A LOT of food out and about, I haven’t been too exciting with my own cooking at home. But, I finally made something pretty spectacular yesterday that I wanted to share with you.

My boyfriend has just had surgery and is recovering at my place, so while he’s all weak and vulnerable, I’ve been feeding him ALL the tasty foods. Yesterday I decided to make him some surprise breakfast waffles, just some simple chocolate waffles I thought…until I came across some bourbon biscuits, Biscoff Spread, White Chocolate and Soya Cream…which led to the most spectacular breakfast I’ve ever made

Chocolate, Hazelnut Cookie Waffles

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For the waffles:

  • 2 cups plain flour
  • 3 tbsp cocoa powder
  • 1/2 cup powdered sugar
  • 2 tsp baking powder
  • 1/2 tsp salt
  • 10 bourbon biscuits, crushed
  • 1 1/4 cups non dairy milk
  • 1 tsp vanilla extract
  • 1/4 cup sunflower oil
  • 1 tbsp hazelnut butter

For the Sauce:

  • 1 bar of iChoc White Chocolate
  • 3 tsp Biscoff Spread
  • 2 tsp coconut oil

Extra Toppings:

  • Whipped non dairy cream
  • Chocolate Syrup
  • Extra Bourbons
  • Lots of Biscoff Spread
  1. First off, mix together the flour, cocoa, sugar, baking powder and salt
  2. Then whisk together the milk, oil and hazelnut butter
  3. Pour the wet ingredients into the dry and mix until combined. Fold in the crushed bourbon biscuits
  4. Heat and oil up the waffle iron and cook 1/3 of a cup of batter each time.
  5. While the waffles are cooking, melt the chocolate, coconut oil and biscoff together.
  6. Assemble by layering waffles with plenty of Biscoff Spread inbetween, lashings of sauce, top with whipped cream, chocolate syrup and an extra bourbon.

I think these are the best waffles I’ve ever made, and that’s saying a lot considering I did a whole month of waffles a few Mofo’s ago. The look on Logan’s face when I brought these through to him was amazing.

We both felt pretty sick after breakfast and then slept most of the day, only waking up to eat huge amounts of vegan pizza from a new takeout that has opened down the road (I’m blogging about that soon, I promise!)

But yeah, that’s pretty much all that’s been going on over the last 5 months or so. I’ll have plenty of time to myself after surgery so hope to post more around then and I have lots of new places to review too, so I will be back in the very near future!

Until then folks!


Vegan in Nuremberg

Check me out, blogging about a German city that isn’t Berlin.

I have actually been to Nuremberg before and eaten some decent vegan grub but did my usual thing of disappearing from the blogging world for months and then managed to lose all my food porn. Not letting that happen this time, so here I am, sleepy and drained after a 13 hour travel day yesterday!

I’ve only ever been to Nuremberg on work business, a massive organic trade show Biofach is hosted there every year. It’s a shame that I’ve only ever been there for work as it’s a cute city and I’d like to get to know it better. But anyway, this week I was sent back after a few years to see what new products are on offer, meet current suppliers and all that other important business stuff. The days are really long and exhausting, so I didn’t manage much outside of work, but what I did try was awesome.

Apologies in advance for the poor photo quality, I had no room in my bag to bring my fancy camera.


I tried Chesmu 2 years ago and fell in love. This is where you need to go if you want a special meal in Nuremberg though I recommend booking a table.


The menu is quite small but offers a nice variety of dishes. I was pleased to see that since my last visit, there were a lot more vegan options available. Everything is veggie but the majority of it could be made vegan.

I went for the Sweet Potato Soup because I had Chestnut Soup on my last visit and it was incredible. I was not disappointed.


Oh my word. These people just know how to do flavours. I usually avoid soup in restaurants because it never really feels that special and I can make a good soup…but I cannot make soups this delicious. I dunno what they did to it, but it was so tasty. I didn’t want it to end.

For my main I went for this amazing Creamy Tofu and Mushroom dish, served with Potato Rosti and salad.


I’ve gotta say, when the bowl of salad arrived on the table I was like ‘omg why do restaurants bother bringing lame bowls of salad?’. And then I tried it and it was not a lame bowl of salad at all, it was super tasty and worked really well with the rest of my dish. I should stop being so judgey with salads. The tofu was really really nice and I love potato rosti. It was super good.

Sadly I was too full to try dessert but they had a rice pudding and an apple cake on offer, both of which sounded amazing. Top marks for Chesmu, really tasty generous portions of food, amazing flavours and also the staff are lovely.



This little gem is just around the corner from Chesmu and as soon as I found out about it, I was all over it. I’m a huge fan of Voner in Berlin, so was super excited that there was another option for me to get a vegan kebab.


This place is really great, you can get the usual doner wrap, or a teller but they also do burgers, stew and goulash. Prices are really reasonable, I paid €9 for a massive doner wrap, chips and a cola.


Oh my God, it was so good. I’m pretty sure the kebab meat is made from soya rather than the wheat gluten I’m used to. Now I love me my wheat gluten but it was nice to have something that didn’t sit so heavily in my stomach and it tasted amazing. If I wasn’t so full I would have got another one, but sadly I couldn’t even finish my chips. The chips were good but I’d say that the Voner chips that are smothered in caramelised onions and tahini are still my faves, I dream of those chips.

They also had cookies and brownies on offer, so yay for dessert! I definitely want to come back here to try one of the burgers.

So those are the two places I visited in Nuremberg, but there are a few more veggie and vegan places around that I’ve yet to try.

As always with German cities, there are organic shops everywhere which sell a huge variety of amazing vegan food, from fake meats and cheeses, pesto, mayo, cakes, cookies, chocolate. All clearly labelled and usually at a pretty good price, so lots of opportunity to pick up amazing food.

We travelled to and from Nuremberg by trains and thought I’d share some food I picked up at Frankfurt Flughafen station.


Tofu, Pepper and Guac Sandwich (a bit of a sloppy filling but pretty good) and this delicious Chocolate Pudding with Berries. It was so easy to find, so clearly labelled…and then I arrived back at London Euston and found nothing vegan for me to eat at all.

Damn, I need to move to Germany already.

Anyway, that’s it from me. I’m off to Poland in a few weeks so hopefully will be sharing more tasty food with you soon, but if anyone has any suggestions for eating vegan in Krakow, please comment below!

Sesame Noodle Lettuce Wraps

Just popping in with a really easy and delicious recipe for you today. I managed to throw this together in about 10 minutes, so perfect for a quick dinner after a long day. As I’ve mentioned in recent posts…I’ve been exhausted just by existing recently, so I was really pleased that I could get some vegetables in my belly without falling asleep before they reach my plate.

Also a simple recipe to chop and change ingredients around if needed. I had an aubergine that was close to turning, so griddled some of that to pop on top but you could add crumbled tempeh, fried tofu or seitan, avocado, sesame seeds, it will all work well here.

Sesame Noodle Lettuce Wraps



  • 1 lettuce
  • a handful of black bean noodles
  • 2 tbsp sesame oil
  • 1 tbsp soy sauce
  • splash of rice vinegar
  • juice of 1 lime
  • 3 cloves garlic, minced
  • 1 tbsp ginger, minced
  • 2 spring onions, finely sliced
  • 1/4 red pepper, finely chopped
  • 1/2 a chilli, finely sliced
  • a few tbsp of roasted peanuts, chopped
  • coriander
  • aubergine, griddled (optional)


  1. First off, cook the noodles in boiling water for 5 minutes before draining and rinsing with cold water.
  2. While the noodles are cooking, heat a little oil in a pan and fry off the garlic and ginger for 30 seconds or so.
  3. Add to the cooked noodles along with the soy sauce, rice vinegar, sesame oil and lime juice. Use your hands to mix it all through until the noodles are coated.
  4. Line up your lettuce leaves, place a small amount of noodles on before topping with spring onion, pepper, chilli, peanuts, coriander and a sliced of griddled aubergine (I just brushed a little sesame oil on and cooked it through on my griddle pan, easy)
  5. Drizzle a little extra sesame and lime juice on before stuffing in yer gob

Super easy right? Also so tasty. I’m not usually a fan of wrapping things in lettuce over delicious carbs but I will make exceptions for dishes like this.


I made the error of getting a baby gem lettuce so the leaves weren’t quite big enough, it was delicious and everything but I’m glad I was eating them alone in my bedroom…’cause I pretty much had to shove the whole thing in my mouth in one go and it was so not attractive.

Just a cautionary image for you all there…



I’ll be honest, there’s not much that will convince me to get out of the house these days. But, when I heard that GRUB were planning an all vegan street food event for Veganuary…I knew I had to get in on the action.


So, before I get into what I ate and the event itself, here’s what the line up looked like.

Yakumama – Latin American Street Food! Serving Arepa, Wontons and Plantain Stew

Oh/Mei/Dumpling – Beautiful, tasty dumplings, handmade in Stockport

Otto-men – Mediterranean and Ottoman inspired deliciousness

Manjits Kitchen – Vegetarian Indian Street food

Fritto – Italian Street Food, making jaws drop with their fresh donuts, polenta chips and panzerotti (deep fried calzone to me and you)

In Truffle We Trust – Local chocolatey truffle goodness

Pasta Factory – Local vegan friendly restaurant who I have blogged about already here. They had their amazing homemade cheeses, crackers and pasta for sale

Los Antojitos – Vegan Mexican Kitchen, selling salsas and hot sauce

Blawd – Local bakery who bake over at Common Bar in the Northern Quarter

Coffee Cranks Coop – Awesome Manchester based workers coop, providing tea, coffee and hot chocolate

Just allow yourself a moment to take all that in.

There we go. Doesn’t it sound amazing? I spent weeks drooling over this line up.

Sadly, I couldn’t try it all (saving for top surgery is financially ruining me dontcha know) but my recent lack of appetite gave me enough funds to have a bloody good go at it. Having pals with me to share was also helpful, especially as my belly game is poor right now.

We arrived early  because there was way more interest in the event than Grub anticipated and I take warnings of queuing times and traders selling out very seriously indeed. Also, more time for face stuffing.



The venue is super cool. I really like The Alphabet Brewing Co. I went to scream along to Iron Chic there last year and it’s a great space run by really cool folk. Sadly I can’t comment on the booze because both times I’ve been, I’ve not been in a drinking place but I hear very good things about it. It is pretty chilly because heat and brewing don’t mix, but if you wrap up warm it’s all good.

I had planned to go round taking loads of pictures but I somehow ended up queuing for dumplings pretty much immediately.



Oh my LORD. These were good. Really, really good. I did think they sounded a little bit healthy for my tastes but good grief, they were magic. I could eat these over and over again. Both the dumplings were frigging tasty and I really loved the sticky rice.



As soon as I finished my dumplings, I headed over to Blawd to sort out take home cake because there was no way I was gonna let it sell out while I was there. I went for the Chocolate Fudge Cake and the Chocolate Salted Caramel Brownie because chocolate and caramel beat everything.

They had some non chocolatey stuff on offer, like a Lemon and Lavender Cake and Banana Bread which looked great.


The Chocolate Fudge Cake was my favourite out of the two, really moist and the icing was super rich and delicious. I loved it. The Chocolate Salted Caramel Brownie was also pretty spectacular, sooo sweet, I think I heard my teeth whimper. I don’t want to be the guy that says ‘too sweet’ but I’ve had to save the rest for later because it was too much for one sitting for me.

As soon as I was caked up, I caught a glimpse of my friends Arepa from Yakumama and was offered a Wonton to try.



It was so good that I ran back to the queues for more food. It was a long wait, I think I was there for nearly 30 minutes as it had got veeerrry busy by this point. Totally worth it when I ended up with one of these in my hands.


I split this with a friend of mine to save tummy space. It was incredible. By far my favourite thing at the event. Delicious. It had all my favourite things, black beans, guac, plantain, chimmichurri… I was kind of sad I only had half of one but I also spent that queuing time next to Fritto and had already decided to get their £10 deal..


So that’s where I ate my Arepa…in the queue for fried food. I’d like to say I do this struggle for you dear readers, but that would be a lie. I queued for a long time. My Arepa was finished within seconds and I lost all feeling in my toes. I got to watch all the doggos visit the dog bar though, so that was good fun.


I finally got my hands on ALL THE FRIED THINGS! Polenta Chips, a Donut and this BEAST of a fried Calzone (I had to steal the Calzone and Donut pictures from their website because I ate them before I could take my own pictures.)




I only managed a few of my polenta chips (SO GOOD) before my body gave up. I’m sorry, I told you my belly game has taken a hit in recent months. I took the donut and calzone home though and they were frigging delicious. I can say the donuts are better fresh from the fryer (I’ve had these before at Levenshulme Market y’see) but they were still good and the calzone heated up fine in the oven at home and made a great breakfast this morning.

This was the point where I just had to stop. I couldn’t eat anymore, I had plenty to take home in my bag and I’d spent a lot of money. Also, it was HEAVING at this point and folk were queuing to get in outside. I was sad not to pick up an almond cheese from Pasta Factory or any of the hot sauces from Los Antojitos. I was also silly enough not to load up with a brew or two from Coffee Cranks while I queued…next time for sure.

Because…there will be a next time! Grub have confirmed that the event was a success and they’re planning to do an all vegan event sometime soon. Yisssss!

I was also told on the way out that there is always at least one vegan option at all the non vegan events each week. This is pretty cool… but like I said, it’s hard to convince me to leave the house unless there’s plenty to gorge on, so I’ll need to keep my eye on the line up to see if those tasty Arepa’s are due to make another appearance. I will venture outside for those any day.

So thank you Grub for hosting such an awesome event. I can’t wait to see what you have planned for us vegans in the future. Keep it up!

Feeling all the Feels. Baking all the Cakes

I’m back with an update and some cake, go me!

I’ve finished my second week of work now and as of today I’m back on full hours. I won’t lie, it’s been a super overwhelming experience. Getting back to normality has been hard and I’m still struggling to deal with a lot of strange and unexpected emotions that have been surfacing.

My first working weekend has been and gone, bringing up all kinds of extra feels. In my absence I’d forgotten what it’s like to be repeatedly misgendered all day, so that was painful. I’d finish a 2 hour till stint wishing for the wrath of Dark Willow to free me from the clutches of my skin cage. Warren, you are one lucky bastard.



But, I persevered. I dealt with crowds, questions and small talk. I pushed through brain fog. I didn’t have a single panic attack, despite feeling on the edge of one for most of Sunday. These are all good positive things that I am trying to remind myself of because when I got home on Sunday, all of the feels in the world hit me…pretty much like this:

It really was enough ‘fun’ for one day. More than enough. I ended up crawling into bed and crying it out for a few hours because apparently I am a child again and that is how I must deal with all the emotions!

I woke up yesterday morning TIRED and not up for doing anything at all. I spent most of the day getting into a new murdery podcast All Killa No Filla and having a bubble bath. I didn’t want to sink back into my old routine of hiding all day, so I pushed myself to get up and do something.

I decided to make cake, because…what else is worth doing in life?

You got it.


I had some free bananas and a free lemon from work, so I decided to use them up. I added lots of coconut because why the hell not?

Banana Coconut Lemon Cake



  • 2 bananas
  • 1/3 cup oil
  • 1 cup coconut milk
  • 1/2 tbsp vanilla extract
  • 1 1/2 cups plain flour
  • 1/3 cup granulated sugar
  • 1/3 cup dessicated coconut (plus a little more for decorating)
  • 2 tsp baking powder
  • zest and juice of 1 lemon
  • 3/4 cup icing sugar


  1. Preheat the oven to 180C and line a loaf tin with parchment paper
  2. Mash the banana and mix in the oil, milk and vanilla extract
  3. In a separate bowl, mix together the flour, sugar, coconut and baking powder
  4. Pour the wet ingredients into the dry and stir until just mixed
  5. Pour into the loaf tin and bake for 45-55 minutes
  6. Once the cake has cooled, mix the lemon juice with the icing. Smother the cake in it and top with lemon zest and dessicated coconut


This was super quick and easy and I like quick and easy rewards. I managed to end the day feeling like I’d done something worthwhile.

I’m always an anxious human, but I have a lot of extra fears now that my safety blanket of a phased return is up. I know I’m not better yet and I’m already feeling the pressure to be “well” again, whatever that means.

For now at least, I have cake to take with me to work this morning, so I’ll get through today. I’ll deal with tomorrow when it comes.


Life is Hard but Plantain & Tacos tho

Holy shit it’s 2017 already and I did another Emil classic of disappearing for a few months. I’m so predictable, it’s embarrassing.

I don’t usually go into my mental health stuff a lot here, but I’ve decided to post a little bit about how I’ve been the last few months. I’ve been in a very dark place so feel free to skip ahead to the recipe below if you’re not interested or not able to read further, but writing has always been good for my soul, so I’m going to give this a go and hope I don’t get scared and delete.

My mental state has slowly been unravelling since September and by the time it got to late last year, my brain had had enough. I borked it. I sank to a whole new low in the long history of my depression. And it scared me. I can just about deal with myself when I go into self destruct mode, which I passed through briefly..because why skip out on all the fun? This time it was different.

I sank lower and lower until I just about gave up on myself, hid in my bed and waited for everything to end. I didn’t care enough to hurt myself anymore than I was already hurting, I didn’t have the fight in me to try and push through it. I just wanted everything to stop. It didn’t. The world kept going while I kept myself hidden. For the first time in my life I couldn’t function and be an adult. I  couldn’t do the basics like eating, drinking or getting dressed in the morning. Leaving the house was impossible because everything outside of my bed was terrifying and exhausting. I don’t think I’ve ever felt so completely alone before. I’ve been suicidal and have acted on it in the past, but I’ve ever wanted to die as much as I did then. I know the only reason I didn’t do it was because I had zero ability to act on anything at all.

I can’t describe how frustrating it is to not be able to care for yourself. The humiliation when someone puts food in front of you and pleads with you to eat. Finding yourself in the supermarket, wild eyes, barely able to breathe, tears running down your face because you made it there, but what the hell are you supposed to do next? How did you get there and why are you even there at all? Seeing fear in the eyes of the people who love and care for you, because they don’t even know what you are anymore. Being so fucking bored of the same complaints going round and round in your head. The agony of not being able to just let it all go and move on. The realisation that no matter what you do, you’re always going to end up back in this place and eventually you will find yourself lost in it forever. It will consume you because it’s bigger and stronger than you can ever be. It’s painful and hopeless.

It’s been really hard, but I’ve finally been able to start getting my life back together. I started off small; short walks in the park with the lovely Jenny from Spice Box of Earth and her gorgeous pooch Vulpe, venturing to the cinema with friends, having a conversation with someone (even if I could barely process it). I’m now in a place where I’m back at work on a phased return, four hours a day, three times this week. I’m over halfway through. I’m super tired but I know I can finish this week and I also have some lovely plans with even lovelier people at the weekend. So good things are coming my way. Also Kobi has been amazing during this whole time, lot of love going out to this little guy


Today I managed to cook a proper meal for the first time in weeks. On my way back from a recent visit to Jenny’s I came across a shop that sells Plantain. I suddenly found myself feeling inspired. A feeling I had not had in a long time. So I bought one and promised to cook with it. That was last Saturday and I only got round to it today, but I’m really pleased that I managed to put something together.

Black Bean & Plantain Tacos



For the plantain:

  • 1 plantain
  • 1 tsp brown sugar
  • 2 tsp cajun spice mix
  • 1/4 tsp black pepper
  • 1/4 tsp salt
  • oil for frying

For the black beans:

  • 1/4 onion, chopped finely
  • 2 cloves garlic, minced
  • 1/2 red pepper, finely chopped
  • 1/2 tsp chipotle chili flakes
  • 2 tsp mexican oregano (I used the Cool Chile Co brand)
  • 1 tin of tomatoes
  • 1 tin of black beans
  • 1 tsp salt
  • handful of coriander, chopped

Other things:

  • Guacamole
  • Coriander
  • Lime juice
  • Salsa
  • Corn tortilla’s


  1. First, get the black beans going. Heat a little oil in a pan and fry off the onion until golden. Add the pepper and garlic and fry for a few more minutes. Add the chipotle and oregano and fry for 30 seconds or so.
  2.  Add the tinned tomatoes and black beans. Reduce the heat and simmer for 20 minutes or so before seasoning with salt and fresh coriander
  3. While the black beans are simmering, slice the plantain and coat in the spices and brown sugar. Heat some oil in a pan and fry off until crispy (about 2 minutes on each side)
  4. Heat up a pan and warm through the tortillas because stuffing with black beans, plantain, guac, salsa and a little lime juice and coriander.


These were really delicious, I actually enjoyed eating them. The plantain was sweet and caramelised which just worked with everything else in the tortillas. I could only manage 1 because my stomach has shrunk to nothingness, but hoping I’ll be able to cram another one in later this evening.

I’m feeling slightly positive that things are on the up for now, and I hope I’ll be posting more here soon. If I don’t it’s because life is overwhelming and I’m tired, but as soon as I’m ready I’ll get back in the blogging saddle for sure. I have lots of things planned.

I hope you all had the best time over the holidays. I’ve missed blogging and I’m looking forward to coming back. Also if anyone has any good recipes for plantain, send them my way. I want to cook with it more.

Choc Chip Pumpkin Banana Bread

I’ve been on a super tight budget over the last few months and it’s set to continue for quite a while as I’m saving for something huge. I will fill you in on that news in a future post.

It’s not been as bad as I was expecting, I enjoy challenging myself to make meals out of very little and it’s pushed me to be a bit more experimental with my cooking. But there’s one thing I don’t like about all this money saving business….lack of pudding! I’ve had to promise myself that I won’t go out of my way to buy sweet treats while I’m saving, unless it’s a special occasion.

Lucky for me, I do have a cupboard chock full of basic baking ingredients like sugar, flour, choc chips etc. So, when I came across free bananas at work and found myself with some leftover pumpkin puree, I knew it was time to treat myself. Here’s what I whipped up…

Choc Chip Pumpkin Banana Bread



  • 2 ripe bananas
  • 140g pumpkin puree (approx 1/3 of a tin)
  • 1/3 cup vegetable oil
  • 1/3 cup brown sugar
  • 1/2 tbsp vanilla extract
  • 225g self raising flour
  • 1.5 tsp baking powder
  • 1/4 cup chocolate chips or nuts (optional)


  • Preheat the oven to 200C and line a loaf tin with parchment
  • Mash the bananas with a fork before adding the pumpkin, oil, sugar and vanilla and mix until fairly smooth
  • Add the flour and the baking powder and stir until combined
  • Fold in the chocolate chips
  • Pour into the loaf tin and bake for 45 minutes
  • Leave to cool before serving


I served mine with some of the new Oatly vanilla custard that I had waiting in the fridge (this stuff is good by the way, really really creamy).  The pumpkin made the cake extra moist and delicious. It was so good. Just what I needed.


I may even eat breakfast for the rest of the week if it means I can eat this.